My senior film has been a nightmare in numerous ways. Mainly because I indulge too heavily in torturing myself. I entered into this project setting out to make THE FILM. I wanted to make my masterpiece, my Fantasia. Now that it's falling short of expectations, I consistently do this thing where I spiral downward into total depression over the slightest details. I can never seem to build myself up on my own, but all it takes is for someone else to say, "dude, what are you worried about? You'll make other films."
I don't like the thought of slugging through a film just to get to the next one, but there's a lot of truth in their advice. We make films so the next will always be better. It's also the strangest thing. This semester I've kind of blown off most of my electives, but I'm making more "A's" than usual. Maybe the secret of life is to give less of a shit?
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